Breathe

Favorite Lyrics: "Let go of the fear, let go of the doubt. Let go of the ones who try to put you down. You're gonna be fine, don't hold it inside. If you hurt right now, then let it all come out."



I won't lie, the first time I saw this video I only cared about David. :D (Credit goes to: confidencegirl)

Last Train Home

Favorite Lyrics: "I'll be your shelter, I'll be your fate. I'll be forever, wait for me. I'll be the last train, I'll be the last train. Hold on to love and wait for me."



(Credit goes to: getbender)

Right Now

So the 2nd song on 11:59 is "Right Now". Enjoy, kids! :D

Favorite Lyrics: "I'm gonna lay on the ground, feel the rain that's coming down. And there's nothing anyone could do or say to bring me down, right now."




(Credit goes to 945PST)

Brand New Day

So I have decided that starting today, I will blog 11:59. What does that mean? Well every day starting today, until August 20th, which is the day of the Scottsdale show (which I will be attending, thank you very much. Be jealous =P) I will post a blog with the title of a song from 11:59. (In the order in which they appear on the CD. Ex. First blog: Brand New Day, last blog: 11:59) And yes, I will do the deluxe version! :D In the blog I will share my favorite lyrics from the song, and a YouTube video of a live performance.

Today I present to you: Brand New Day. (In case you didn't see the title up there :D)

Favorite Lyrics: "They say we're dreaming too big, I say this town's too small."



The video above was taken at the Mix 969 event in February. I was there! :D (Credit goes to: xXDavidCookFanXx)

Face Down

So I've come to the (not so) shocking conclusion that...I'm screwed up. Yeah! In the past hour it's come to my attention and not for the first time, that I handle negative things in the worst possible way. I channel my inner 3 yr old. A very violent 3 year old. If I could punch a wall and not break my hand, I wouldn't have a bedroom at this point. I slam doors, scream and top the tantrum sundae with tears. In that order. But that's not really the worst part. The worst part is that I do it over the stupidest things. Things that are NOT potentially life-ruining. It's pathetic. The thing is, my reactions are instantaneous! Before I can even decide how I feel, I freak out!

I've always been very emotional, though. I remember, long ago, one of my friends said the following about me: "When she's happy, you'll know it before she says a word. When she's sad, it breaks your heart. When she's angry...well, good luck!" :D

Being an emotional person isn't always a bad thing. It's not having an outlet that could become a problem.

I don't lack an outlet, exactly. I mean, you're looking at it right now. My problem is being able to properly put into words EXACTLY how I feel. I will start writing something and if I don't like ONE thing about it, the entire thing goes. Then it frustrates me even more! See? Stupid!

I don't know. Maybe I need additional outlets. A punching bag? An "insert-photo" dart board? A line up of all the people who have screwed me over, and me with a baseball bat? Yes, yes, and Oh HELL YES!

I guess the only thing I accomplished by writing this blog is to admit to myself (and the world) that I have a LONG way to go before I can put a handle on my emotional reactions. Eh, good enough start! :D Til next time, kids!

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Lyric of the Day: "A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect. Every action in this world will bear a consquence." - Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

RStar Project.

*Note* One of the main reasons I decided to do this, is because I am unable to attend Ryan's CD release on Aug 3rd. But this little project isn't just for those who can't attend.

Alright kids, so here's the deal: I came up with the idea of giving Ryan a little something in honor of his CD release. We all know he loves to hear from the fans. My first thought was to ask everyone to write him a letter. And then I would organize them all in a scrapbook. Well, I'm really not all that creative. I probably couldn't put together a scrapbook without freaking out. :D

So when I went shopping the other day, I came across some 5x7 cards. (in various pastel colors :D) Each comes with its own envelope. *EDIT* And this what they look like (please excuse my poor picture taking skills):



The basic letter idea still stands, except it will be downsized.

If you want to participate, it's pretty simple: you have a 5x7 sized card to work with. Write him anything you want. You will then email it to me and I will print it off on the cards. Once I've printed off everyone's cards, I will then organize them in a *keepsake box. A couple pictures of the box can be seen below. The deadline for the project is Monday July 26th.





REGARDING DELIVERY: Someone has now offered to deliver the project to Ryan! (Thank you so much, Emily!) She and I will work out the details of the delivery. In the meantime, give me something to deliver! Send in your notes!

Please email me at guadalupe_hernandez84@yahoo.com (please incl. "RStar Project" in the subject line):

-If you'd like to participate. I need an approximate idea of how many people, in case I need to buy more cards. I'd like to get them before I completely run out.

-When you are ready to have me print your note off.

-If you have any other questions.

Thanks a lot kids!!!!

More Time

I don't like Twitter today! I didn't like RL yesterday!

Without mentioning any names, I just read on Twitter that a HS friend of one of my Twitter girls passed away at the age of 34. My deepest condolences go out to her and her friend's family. (I love you, sweetheart! *big hugs*)

Just now a read a Twitlonger from someone who's been struggling with her health quite a bit. (I hope you get answers soon so you can finally conquer this thing! I love you! *tackle-hug* ;P )

Yesterday, my brother-in-law found out that his aunt and uncle were in a car accident, neither one made it.

I don't know what else to say, so short blog today. I just needed to get that out. My brain is still full, but I haven't quite figured out how to empty it out without making a big mess. Maybe I'll conjur up another blog later today. Maybe. Excuse me while I begin my therapy session for the day, in the form of music.

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Lyric of the Day: "Yeah, the road gets harder, but it’s not much farther. It’s gonna be alright. You know that it ain’t easy. Please believe me. It’s gonna be alright." More Time - NeedToBreathe